Sundays are possibly my favorite days.

I don't spend my Sundays like most people do. Most people I know, Sleep in until around 10 or 11, but not this girl...

I get up around 6:30 am and take a shower and get ready for church. I either listen to Classical or just the gentle humming of our van.
Then grab my purse, keys, shoes, and Missalette book and head out the door. I usually try get to church about 15 minutes before to say my extra little prayers and to get settled in to my pew. As church lets out I feel enlightened and ready for the week, and then I head down the street to Whole foods and pick up breakfast supplies and fresh flowers. 
Then I start to head home and I roll down the windows and I feel like everything is perfect. I know "nothing is perfect" but I feel pretty close.

When I arrive home, I'm ready to make breakfast and feed the girls and my fiancé, and as we sit there and eat, I look at them, think;

"How did I get THIS far?"

It still amazes me that I am raising two girls and they are both healthy, happy, and couldn't ask for anything more. Maybe some more fruit or juice but that's about it. I know I put myself down a lot about the progress I'm making but when I really look back on the weeks past, I'm getting better and better at life then I expected. People are always gonna have their opinion on you and they are always gonna talk, but you just have to remember that you have to stay true to who you are and don't be someone that you think everyone wants you to be. 

A day with/without my girls

So it was a very lonely day. 

My everyday life revolves around two little beings that are always on the go somewhere and are so full of energy, today was the total opposite of that.. 

This morning, I waited for them to start talking, because every morning they are always talking to each other, I don't know what kind of conversations go on between them but they sound coded. But nothing. 7 went by and nothing, so I decided to clean our bedroom and our bathroom and the vanity. 8 went by and there was still nothing so I went in there to check on them and they were still sound asleep so I let them sleep as long as they wanted, so I picked up in the living and I put their movies away and cleaned up the mess they made from the night before, and then around 8:55 I heard some start to cry and it was Clementine and she had a fever of 101.7 and she was not looking so happy and Scout was just laying there, starring off into space and then sat up and told me her "neck hurt" so I knew she had a sore throat and then I got them up and tried to feed them some fruits but they didn't eat much and just laid on the couch while watching "Doc McStuffin" and after a while they both started to fall asleep so I put them in their beds they napped most of the day only getting up to eat some soup and played for 20 minutes and then went back to sleep.


It felt so lonely, not having them on my heels every 2 seconds and they just seemed so down and I didn't know what really to do but just comfort them and give them all the attention they needed. I hate when they are sick because they are not themselves and I don't like my girlies to be down and out. I'm use to wiring girls running here and there, Scout asking so many questions and Clementine sitting on my lap every time I'm sitting on the floor.
I'm not going to lie and sitting here and say "I love my children being around me every second of the day" I like to have a little "me time" but when I get too much, I miss my girls. I sometimes wish for those days where I can almost have the whole day to myself, but when I have it, I want them with me. I feel like I have to have them with me. Being a stay at home mom and having my "bosses" with me all the time gets very... used to. 

My little space

It's coming along very nicely. I feel like everything is going into place right where it should be. 
I'm picking up little things here and there and trying to keep it neat and tidy, but with the girls so curious and swimming around me like two little sharks its hard to not have them up here and moving around things. 
 here are some pictures of some of the things I've picked up at TJMAXX and Homegood (Which I really need to give it a rest because I feel like there more than I am at home)

 An over view of the left corner of my desk

 This little doggie bowl was only 0.99 because the tail was broken and when I got home I glued it back on

 I cannot get over this little quote canvas! I fell in love with it as soon as I saw it and when I turned it around to look at the price it was sop shocking to find out that it was only $3.99!!

 I picked this up from a World Market a few months ago and I knew I had to have it! (Yves) Saint Laurent is one of my favorite designers and I thought it would go good on my vanity but it just didn't seem to, so I put it away until I could find its purpose and now it has; it's home is now on my desk.

 I've been making slow switch over from plain wax candles to soy candles. I picked a couple of them up from Target and placed some in our bed room, the living room, and I grabbed a small one to put on my desk and it's just a nice thing to light when I'm sitting here and blogging and checking emails. 

The little gold pot, I believe is a candle holder but I just use it for my paper clamps, I got it in the dollar section at Target and I thought it would balance to the sisscors. 

My basket holder I picked up from TJMAXX and I knew it would go with the "Saint Laurent" pencil holder, and I needed something to hold all my things that I DO need out and within arms reach. I also stuck my planner things (the bright floral pack up front) because my desk is also where I put my week together in my planner, so I have to have that close.

So that was the most of the things I got, but I think I will be changing around some things because I'm just that kind of person to change things just like when the seasons change. 

Happy Mother's Day to Us mothers

Today was everything I wanted and more...
First, waking up to the day around 5:30am and I was so anxious for the day to start as I laid there trying to go back to sleep, I couldn't get my mind of what God had planned for me and my little family. 

It started off after I laid there trying to wake up (fully) and watching "The Sixth Sense" off and on until around 7:30am and I just wanted my whole family to be up with me and I got a call from my mother saying she was on her way over to our home to come to church with us which made me MORE excited! We got to church right before 9am mass and in church I felt like,... I couldn't have anything more... I have everything I have ever wanted. I have children that are some of the best kids I ever met in my entire life, a man that loves me beyond the moon and through a black hole in the universe and back again and that would do anything for me (and today he has proved that once again), I have parents that are not in good health but they are grateful for everything they have and they are there for each other no matter what. I love this life... What more can I ask for? Sure, we don't have all the money in the world and we don't have super expensive things but we have what we have, and that's our health, love for each other, and a place to eat and sleep. Church just made me feel so grateful and blessed. 
After church we went to Village Inn where it took far too long to have breakfast, the pie was worth it. Then we came home and let the girls rest and I laid in and thought about how I just feel at peace and I just want to close my eyes and sleep.
I'm just want to express my love for my mother. She is one of the greatest woman I have ever met in my life. She may not be super perfect but she makes the best of things in this messed up world. She has taken on some bad things in her life ever since she was a kid and she still faces them. but I see how she strong she is and I hope that one day I will be as strong as her. She is my best friend. Always there for me no matter what the situation is, and she always has words of encouragement when I need them the most. And even thought I know I'm her biggest brat, I love that she helps me out when I need something and money goes tight. I can't image my world without her. I wish we could keep our parents around forever because she could seriously not be replaced.

Now, back from shopping for foods for the week and having dinner, I look back on all this today and I just can't stop thinking how can it get any better? How can I love this life anymore? I just don't want this day to end. 

But just wanted to share my mother's day with the world and say Happy Mother's Day to who ever you are reading this.

First Post, First iMac

Today is May 9, 2015 and I'm enjoying my time to myself, listening to Bright Eyes' "Lifted or the Story is in the Soil, Keep your ear to the ground" album, before all the madness starts i.e. my little gets up from her nap and her older sister comes in from Dada and daughter time. 
I figured that I would start a blog since I will be in this spot a lot and I know I will be here... a lot.

What to blog about now? I'm not sure. I know I'm going to blog mainly about my life and all that happens in it. I will try to blog all the things I do and my girls do, a,d occasionally my extended family do. How do I start though... Let's start with today.

This morning was a pure sour morning. And by that I mean I didn't have a good one. But by mid-day it turned all around. Keegan (my fiancé) bought my mother's day present early and now I am blogging about it and it is everything I wanted. But, then again I never expected a computer. lol 
I guess I just have to make the most of it I guess. 
I didn't make an intro to my life;

My name is Jessica, but I prefer Jessa. I live in Chandler, Arizona with a fiancé by the name of Keegan and we fell in love in December 2011 and now we have 2 girls, Scout and Clementine. They are 18 months apart and they love each other so much. I'm pretty sure they could not go a day with out one another, but I'm not trying to break them apart. 

I'm 100% Native American, I am Akimel O'Otham (Pima, if you will) And I'm from the Gila River and I'm proud of where I came from. I can't think of anything else right now but I think I'm going to leave this intro as it is... I'm hoping that people do start to follow and comment on it. Thank You

Jessa as a child